Monday, December 21, 2009

Lessons Learned in '09 Chapter 5

Welcome to my new series titled Lessons Learned in 2009. This series is a serious look back at my life in 2009. I try not to get too personal on this blog but for this series I dug deep and I hope you enjoy it.
Chapter 5 - Death

I had this post all written out and ready to go but after reading over it I just hit delete. I feel like I can't find the right words to say but I'm going to give it a try...its not going to be pretty or well written. I'm just going to be blunt and get it out there...

Death is two sided. On one side you have the sorrow, the grief and the pain. But there is another side. A side that is peaceful and comforting. Several years ago I lost my grandmother to cancer. Her death was hard to watch, it was slow and painful. The hurt was so deep in me, something I had never experienced before. One day, years later I was talking to my grandmother in heaven above and I realized that she never left my side. Yes, she left earth but she is still with me. I can talk to her, I can pray to her, I can feel her. I felt comfort for the first time since her death.

Earlier this year I lost my three year old cousin Gavin and although we are all still grieving, for the first time I am able to look ahead and see comfort on the horizon. I am not sure that you ever stop grieving someones death but I am sure that if you believe in God, you never really lose someone...they are with you forever, in heaven, watching over you.

Up Next, Chapter 6 - Family

Click here to read Chapter 1 - Don't get too comfortable
Click here to read Chapter 2 - Perspective
Click here to read Chapter 3 - Weight loss
Click here to read Chapter 4 - Babies


The Darbzilla said...

Heather, it is never easy losing a child, but you are so right; when a person passes, they never truly leave you. The body may die, but the spirit lives forever, and is always there to comfort. I talk to my Gran regularly, and she passed away almost 20 years ago. I know she's with me every day, in some way, as I know yours is and Gavin is as well. ♥

Hayley said...

Great post Heather.

I often wonder how people who do not believe in God or a heaven actually cope with death. I know that sounds bad.
Its just that knowing that they are always there with you, or are in a better place alwaus gives me so much comfort and that one day we will all meet again...for me is just so awesome.