Lessons Learned in '09 Chapter 5

Welcome to my new series titled Lessons Learned in 2009. This series is a serious look back at my life in 2009. I try not to get too personal on this blog but for this series I dug deep and I hope you enjoy it.
Chapter 5 - Death

I had this post all written out and ready to go but after reading over it I just hit delete. I feel like I can't find the right words to say but I'm going to give it a try...its not going to be pretty or well written. I'm just going to be blunt and get it out there...

Death is two sided. On one side you have the sorrow, the grief and the pain. But there is another side. A side that is peaceful and comforting. Several years ago I lost my grandmother to cancer. Her death was hard to watch, it was slow and painful. The hurt was so deep in me, something I had never experienced before. One day, years later I was talking to my grandmother in heaven above and I realized that she never left my side. Yes, she left earth but she is still with me. I can talk to her, I can pray to her, I can feel her. I felt comfort for the first time since her death.

Earlier this year I lost my three year old cousin Gavin and although we are all still grieving, for the first time I am able to look ahead and see comfort on the horizon. I am not sure that you ever stop grieving someones death but I am sure that if you believe in God, you never really lose someone...they are with you forever, in heaven, watching over you.

Up Next, Chapter 6 - Family

Click here to read Chapter 1 - Don't get too comfortable
Click here to read Chapter 2 - Perspective
Click here to read Chapter 3 - Weight loss
Click here to read Chapter 4 - Babies

All bets are off

I am emotionally - a wreck. I went to be irritated and woke up angry.

I am really annoyed/bothered/disgusted by all the MJ comments. "Poor MJ", "So sad about MJ"....I'm not shocked, I knew it was coming; the celebrity tributes, the crazed fans etc etc.

But it bothers me and here's why; he was accused of molesting children! Does that not speak volumes to anyone else? I don't care if you are the king of pop, if you can walk on water or can turn things into gold with the touch of your finger --- when it comes to molesting children --- all bets are off.

The point was brought up to me that he was accused and not convicted. Well I have this to say to them...tell that to the poor child - the victim. At the very least... it is not appropriate for a grown man to have someone else's child in his bed. Is that not common sense? What kind of example are we setting for the kids? That its okay to get away with molestation if you have lots of money. And what kind of message are we sending to the victims of molestation?

I wish that MJ was held to the same standards as that pedophile that lives a street over from you. Everybody wants to burn that mans house down. But NO...not MJ...its okay if he does it. Sorry about what happened to you little boy but we really like MJ - so we are going to turn a blind eye to what happened.

I am so so saddened for the victim(s) and his children. I pray that those kids can find healing and peace in their lives...


I am hesitant about allowing reader comments on this post because this is obviously already a hot topic issue on FB. This will not be turned into an argument. You can either agree or disagree with me - I just needed an outlet to spit this all out. If you would like to leave a comment please do so but I will be monitoring them.

Hyundai incentive or insult?

Okay let’s look at the facts; if you loose your job and can’t afford your car anymore and decide to turn it in, (called a voluntary repossession) it could still end up costing you in addition to a huge negative impact on your credit that could haunt you for years.

However, with that being said does anyone still really think that the fact that Hyundai is offering to repossess your car with no negative impact if you loose your job as an incentive to buy?

Sounds to me like its more insult to injury! What do you think?

Frustrated.

My only wish was to go to bed early and get a good nights sleep...

I was woken up at 3 am.
I tossed and turned until 6am.
I was late to work.
I did my makeup in the car.
I have 10 million issues to follow up on at work.
My husband is PMS'ing.
And last but not least - the dog ate cat poop.

Oh. AND the Phillie's lost.

Can I get a do over please?

What is frustrating you today? Please share.

Dear Zoe

Last night we had to put our dear Zoe down to sleep. There was nothing we could do to help him, he was in so much pain. I felt so bad for him, my heart just aches. I miss him so much, he was part of our family. It seems so surreal today - did that really happen?

I have never seen my husband so torn and upset, Zoe was his baby for sure. Here is a little story about Zoe and how he became apart of us.

Zoe - I love you little guy and we miss you already! Jacob is searching all over the house for you, I can tell he is sad too. I'm so sorry we couldn't help you - you were only 3! I pray that you are resting peacefully now. Dr Shwab was so kind and did everything he could, he gave us your paw prints set in clay and we will cherish it and every memory of you always. I'm so so so sorry Zoe. WE LOVE YOU!