Welcome to my new series titled Lessons Learned in 2009. This series is a serious look back at my life in 2009. I try not to get too personal on this blog but for this series I dug deep and I hope you enjoy it.
Chapter 5 - Death
I had this post all written out and ready to go but after reading over it I just hit delete. I feel like I can't find the right words to say but I'm going to give it a try...its not going to be pretty or well written. I'm just going to be blunt and get it out there...
Death is two sided. On one side you have the sorrow, the grief and the pain. But there is another side. A side that is peaceful and comforting. Several years ago I lost my grandmother to cancer. Her death was hard to watch, it was slow and painful. The hurt was so deep in me, something I had never experienced before. One day, years later I was talking to my grandmother in heaven above and I realized that she never left my side. Yes, she left earth but she is still with me. I can talk to her, I can pray to her, I can feel her. I felt comfort for the first time since her death.
Earlier this year I lost my three year old cousin Gavin and although we are all still grieving, for the first time I am able to look ahead and see comfort on the horizon. I am not sure that you ever stop grieving someones death but I am sure that if you believe in God, you never really lose someone...they are with you forever, in heaven, watching over you.
Up Next, Chapter 6 - Family
Click here to read Chapter 1 - Don't get too comfortable
Click here to read Chapter 2 - Perspective
Click here to read Chapter 3 - Weight loss
Click here to read Chapter 4 - Babies